One last thing before I quit on 2014...
Here is a GIF I created sometime in the past few months:
2014 was a loss. It may not have been the worst year but it was, in many ways, the emptiest. Maybe I just needed to fucking lose an entire year like this, to take a breath and take stock.
More and more, I feel like I can't just keep trying to get some big corporation to LET ME make a movie. I need to just start making movies.
I know what I'm capable of doing. I need to make this happen on my own terms.
Here are two more GIFs I created in the past few weeks:
All right, I refuse to torture myself if I decide to not go to this party tonight. On paper, it looks like something I wouldn't do -- which is exactly the sort of thing I gravitate towards. I keep going back and forth on this. It's almost 6pm. If I go, I want to leave by 8 or 9. Trains are going to be a bitch.
I've had more painful years than 2014. Years I've made less money. Years I've gotten my heart and lungs ripped out. This is has been a less turbulent year, but that isn't necessarily good. Getting your ass kicked at least means you're still fighting.
I hate making new year resolutions... but I need to fight harder this year.
Stay safe tonight.