sick puppy

so sick. i think age makes everyone more of a hypochondriac but it's worse when you're waiting for your health insurance to be reinstated. and i feel like i've been sick with a greater frequency the past number of months... which surely means i'm about to die.

my skin was aching yesterday. that tired, aching feeling of a cold, without other immediate symptoms. still, i hit the gym. sometimes a workout makes the hurt go away but it didn't. not yesterday. a difficult night into a difficult morning.

now it's thursday and i'm trying to pull myself together.

if i'm gonna die today, i do hope it's sudden...