Saturday, June 27, 2015

The Long Dark

Thursday morning, I had an argument over text message with my significant other and there's been radio silence ever since. Didn't even seem like the worst argument but... who knows. This relationship was complicated from the beginning and I'm hoping and praying it doesn't end here. But there are the things you can control and the things you can't.

Forced myself to take a long walk today, through Central Park. It was overcast and drizzly. I listened to the Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast, featuring a woman whose 18 year old daughter committed suicide. In the aftermath, she wrote a book of letters to her daughter. It was a harsh episode to listen to in my mood but helped me in a way.

I am fighting the darkness. Trying to eat healthier this weekend, treat myself a little kinder. "Self-medicating" really messed me up Friday night. It's great and numbing and can really improve my mood in the moment, but the aftermath is just harder. Saturday was all about taking better care of myself. Harming myself is not going to make getting through this any easier.

Went for a walk, got some decent sustenance and thought I'd try to write a little and maybe play some video games to take my mind off things. Playing video games has helped distract me in the past.

I played THE LONG DARK off of Steam. It did not feel good.

THE LONG DARK drops your nameless character in the middle of a wintry wasteland and the point of the game is to try to survive as long as you can, managing your resources and needs. It is an inherently lonely game, though. When you're feeling alone, the desolation of the game doesn't really help. Bad game choice for today.

I did watch Clint Eastwood's JERSEY BOYS this afternoon which was perfect. I mean, it's a perfectly mediocre movie, but it's simple enough and you get to hear the songs and none of it triggered any bad memories for me... so it was a perfect movie for today. Sometimes you don't need a great movie, just something that doesn't upset your stomach. Also watched the pilot episode of MR. ROBOT which was very good, though it did play on my heightened anxiety.

I'm tired. Trying to stay positive and have faith.

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Nigel Has a Posse.


Nigel Cohen
??? 2002 - June 17, 2015

The "Parrot Sketch" is one of Monty Python's classic sketches. If you're not familiar with it, I encourage you to watch it:



John Cleese delivered this eulogy for fellow Monty Pythoner (and co-author of the "Parrot Sketch") Graham Chapman in 1989.



Nigel the cat is no more.

He has ceased to be. Bereft of life. He rests in peace, he has kicked the bucket, hopped the twig, bit the dust, snuffed it, breathed his last, and gone to meet the Dark Lord of Kitties in the sky... and I guess that we’re all thinking how sad it is that a cat of such talent, of such intelligence should now be so suddenly spirited away before he’d had enough fun.

Well, I feel that I should say, “Nonsense. Good riddance to him, the freeloading bastard!"

As someone who looked after Nigel on more than one occasion, Nigel did NOT suffer strangers kindly. It is not a secret nor an exaggeration to state that Nigel and I were not on speaking terms for the last few years. Each time I visited the Cohen Compound and chanced upon exchanging a glance with Nige, I could see the seething contempt in his eyes. Those eyes that seemed to say, "Who let you in here again?"

But he was Dave's most constant companion. It was Dave who plucked this stray kitten from the slums of the Upper West Side and raised him to be proud of both his feline and Jewish heritage.

Nigel was loved and Nigel loved. He leaves behind a family who will always love him.

Nigel, the dark prince, has a posse. Rest in peace, old boy.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Ron Moody Has a Posse


Ronald Moodnick
January 8, 1924 – June 11, 2015



We shared a birthday. (Is this the first time I've shared a birthday with one of these...?)

Ron Moody has a posse.

Sunday, June 07, 2015

Christopher Lee Has a Posse


Sir Christopher Frank Carandini Lee
May 27, 1922 – June 7, 2015
Christopher Lee has a posse.

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Science Playground


If you've got kids, I highly recommend the New York Hall of Science in Queens. They've got this massive Science Playground and interactive exhibits for a whole range of tykesters.

Went there with the girlfriend and child yesterday and there was sooo much more to do and see than we expected. (Made this video featuring one ball-track exhibit in the playground: there is really an embarrassing amount of stuff for kids to do in that playground.)

New York Hall of Science: Malice Highload's Kid Pick of the Week!