lost days

i slept so much yesterday. day and night. i was out so late the night before, stuck on the train and then out in the cold trying to get home... and i haven't been sleeping a lot in general for such a long time... maybe i just needed a crash day.

didn't drink any alcohol yesterday. though i guess there's not as much need for alcohol when you've already got the sweet escape of sleep.

can't shake the feeling that i am going to die alone. and that every girl i've ever loved and lost is going to live happily ever after.

some people make it seem so easy.