You Can Be Frightened

Good conference call with a producer on Monday. My first big business call of the year. Another call with more producers Tuesday night. People want to be in the Malice Highload business. People who don't read this godforsaken blog.

Work is the salvation. Work will set me free.

Need to keep focus now.

What the fuck have I been through? What the fuck have I put myself through?

Not out. Not out of the woods. Lapses, relapses, it's how it works.

The way I've been living, I don't know how much longer I've got. Seriously. So I've got to make this count. I've got to make this stupid life count.