the death of the party

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didn't feel like blogging today but the day's almost over and it looks like i'll survive, so here i am. (though i'm too tired to insert a picture to go along with this one.)

barely slept last night. couldn't sleep, so i worked on a title sequence for a video i just started editing. and then i imagined creating a noose out of my belt.

my new position at the office kept a rollin' today. i'm like a substitute teacher, except i'm a substitute office coworker -- complete with making small talk with each new group of coworkers as i fill in. i didn't realize what an integral part of that is to my new position. as the title of my blog might suggest, i don't easily get chummy with everyone. at work, particularly, i'd rather read a book/magazine than chat about my plans for the weekend.

but at this job, you really depend on your coworkers to watch your back when the heat is on -- so even the ones you hate, you have to make friendly with.

i feel like such a fraud (my face is still sore from fake-laughing at a coworker's paintball anecdotes for an hour this morning), but it seems to be working.

ok, once again, i've shared too much on this blog. thank god it's thursday.