desolation

need to calm down. one thing at a time. the place will get taken care of. i will find a new home and it will be better. concentrate on the show for now. three rehearsals this week, three nights, two hours a shot, that's not bad. the actors have the hard work, all i have to do is herd them and give them an outlet to run it a shitload of times. will take pictures of all the things i need to sell off on friday. another counseling session on friday night, it's like an exit interview. saturday, do something nice for myself, like get shit-faced. sunday night, a big rehearsal, maybe our last real shot to get it right. monday, vacation day. tuesday night, the last real rehearsal i have to run. next thursday night, big group rehearsal/meeting. next saturday, the show, all day prep. and then i'm out. december will be better. maybe even mid-november will be better. small housewarming party to christen whatever Fortress of Solitude 2 ends up being.

die alone. die alone. die alone.