widow for a year

As one slowly makes the adjustment to all the ways in his or her life that have changed as a result of the loss, a sense of reorganization and renewal begins to evolve. Life is forever changed after a significant loss, but you slowly learn how the different aspects of your life become reprioritized as you “pick up the pieces” and begin to move on. It is not that you forget about the person who died, but you have begun to learn how to live with this knowledge.

it's been over a year since my wife walked out on me. i've done everything i could in this year. i've gone a lot further than anyone i know would have gone. but now it's over. as much as i've grieved this past year, the end is still hard. like pulling the plug on someone who's been in a coma for over a year.

some people may question why or how i 'held out' as long as i have, but i had to do this my way. i made a commitment that meant something to me. i've got some big hurdles over the next few months, between sorting things out and moving and making things official. but even though this is ending, i don't regret putting in the effort that i did.

now it's time for me to try to find some peace.