sustained sense of peace

sunday. forced myself to step out onto the gray/ drizzly/ wintry city streets to head to barnes & nobles to try to pick up ANOTHER book that was recommended to me. this recommendation, from someone on an online support group.

on the walk, negotiating the disgusting icy-gray pools of melted snow collected along street corners, i had another one of my epiphanies. thought about writing the words down, but i didn't feel like going to the trouble. so i just kept repeating one of the key phrases to myself:

"a sustained sense of peace"

for 30 blocks. saying it to myself like a mantra. muttering it under my breath. sustained sense of peace. that's what i'm after. that's what i've been after.