fool

nobody likes you
everyone's left you
they're all out without you
having fun...
green day

2 more days of work to suffer through before i can scurry back into my hole.

2 days. 19 hours of sitting here. quietly reflecting on the ruins of my life. waiting for people to reply to 3 page e-mails i've written them. (what are all you people doing..? LIVING YOUR LIVES?!?)

a few weeks ago, i reluctantly agreed to travel across state borders this saturday to play paintball with coworkers. a bonding experience. i don't think handing me a gun right now is a good idea, even if it's filled with paint. anyway, i tried to see if i could back out yesterday and i think i helped kill the whole trip.

(i was told that a lot of people were backing out, but i like to think that i'm responsible for killing the day.)

so tired. just get me through today and tomorrow and i can lose myself for another weekend...