((a long, dark ride))

not ready to go into details about my long absence here.

tonight, fell asleep sometime before 10pm and woke up a few minutes ago, after a stream of dreaming...

already, the details of the dreams are fading... many heated arguments with my mother and father... sitting in a house (not a trailer house) that gets ripped up from the ground (not a tornado), hurtles through the air, and is tossed back into the earth somewhere completely different... hanging out with my sister (and others?) as the vivid sensation of rising and falling suddenly fills the room... looking out the window and seeing the world, from far away, come rushing back toward us... we are falling and we are being planted somewhere that is far, far away from where we expected to be...

don't know where i am...

it's still new york... just not the new york that i knew...