forget

 

i watched XMEN-2 on sunday.  it was strangely comforting.  i realized that *i* was a mutant -- only one without any cool powers, except a mild ability to feign interest.

 

the past few days have been excruciating.  at work, the people who'd come to the show gradually approaching me, gingerly tiptoeing around any compliments.  i should have kept the work people clear of this; i should have kept my workplace a safe, neutral harbor.

 

slowly, the mixed responses begin to filter into the inbox.  you have read between the lines in some cases.  people who can't quite bring themselves to lie, but can't quite bring themselves to tell the full truth either.

 

honestly, i never imagined it would be this bad.  i know i should be consuming all this feedback.  i should be using it to help me revise and learn and grow.  i know that this is just part of the process of putting your stuff out there -- they're not all going to be unequivocal hits.

 

but right now i just need a little more time to come to terms with everything...

 

called out sick today.  ate something bad on sunday and had a hard time sitting through work yesterday.  went to bed at 7:30pm.  missed all my reality shows (Littlest Groom, Obnoxious Fiance, Average Joe 2).  now i stay home and gaze at my wounds.